Let the games begin...

What i was doing just now.

Honestly, i don't really feel like i'm 19. But then again, i've been 19 for only 1hr, 23mins. I have like 364days, 22hrs and 36mins till i'm 20.

Fuck, just realised i'm so old. OMG. And this is my last year as a teenager. Next year, i joined the 20+ group ): Oh no...

This is my last year to live my teenage life to the fullest! 

Watched this show the other night. Got damn angsty during it cause it was so sad and i was pissed at the guy in the show ahah. Go watch! It's about LDR.

This show made me lose even more faith in LDRs. Never ever wanna have one man! Scary. Sigh.

This is the girl acting in it. She's kinda pretty! And she's British i think?

This is the guy. He's ugly, in my opinion and he's balding.

But yeah, go watch if you want your heart to be ripped out, torn and shredded into a million pieces and stomped on the ground like grapes. Don't say i never warn hor. LOL.

That night, after Matt got enlisted, i went to Timbre to meet Rach, Yangyang, Mel, Clarice and Joyce. Went to ArtsHouse cause i think it's quite cooling due to the river there lol and i find it peaceful lah.

Ordered...

Crispy fish thingyy.

Duck pizza.

Hawaiian pizza.

And some pork ribs thing.

Then Rach and i tried to go coordinate the band to sing Happy Birthday at the same thing we brought the cake out. So difficult okay! Anyway...sorta failed but it's okay.

This was the cake we bought for Mel.

Mango Margarita.

Cosmo. Tastes like medicine sia.

Anyway idk why throughout the dinner, there was this group 2 tables away from us and they kept staring at us. At one point, 2 of the guys kept looking at us and cheers-ing us -.- I looked straight at the guy and looked away HAHA. Partly also because i was blinded from my flash and couldn't see properly. And then as we were leaving , they smiled at us -.- Just ignored them again, LOL.

Went outside to camwhore somemore cause had the river there LOL. And just as we wanted to start camwhoring, the whole group came out too -.- Facepalm. But lucky they only smoked and then walked off.

Kungfu pose?

Dragon ball HAHAHA.

Halfway through, my darling called me, LOL

Picture of all of us (:

After that walked to Clarke Quay and walked around cause i've never really walked around in Clarke Quay before. Deprived kid hor? At one point, we just stood still and started talking about shit. Literally. HAHAH. The thing that comes out of your asshole, HAHAHAHA.

Then, we all went our separate ways. I took train with Mel and Clarice cause we all live along the purple line.

Hi kids, come listen to my sad sad story, LOL.

Kay,  i really wanted to buy the Nescafe can drink thingy. Only 2/3 of the shops near my house were opened. So i walked to the nearest one first. They didn't have it. Walked to the last one , since the middle one was closed. That one didn't have it either! And i def knew that the one that was closed had it.

Anyway, i was feeling kinda desperate for it. So i walked to Greenwich ): In my 'Just Woke Up' state , my TP shirt, and FBT shorts. I was really hoping not to bump into anyone.

So, upon reaching Greenwich, i decided to try 7-11 first. And wtf, at first i couldn't even find the 7-11 -.- And when i found it , they didn't even have the drink! So i went to Cold Storage. They had a miserable selection. There was only 5 cans and the flavours were "Latte" and "Original". So like wtf lor. I walked around the whole Cold Storage hoping there'd be a fridge which had more flavours or something but, NOTHING! So no choice, had to go buy it. Then i tried finding for 17 Mag cause i know the new issue is already out. Andddd. they didn't have it anywhere. So i bought Style Mag -.- And one Latte and one Original.

Never ever bought it in my life but the girl on the cover looked kinda cool LOL.

Yes, i know, i don't know how to save money ): So yeah,hahaha.

Then on the way home, i started blasting Moonlight Shadow #likeanahlian

You're always not here when i need you the most. Forever busy partying somewhere.

Like tonight, for instance, you're off at that bitch's chalet.

Did you even stop for one second to think about me? You don't allow me to go out with my friends or for my class chalet. You restrict every single thing for me. But when you wanna do those things, it's okay?

Tell me, Matthew, how is that fair?

All i'm asking is for you to be here for me. To tell me everything's gonna be alright. And to not give me shit all the time. Cause i've really had enough of this. I've had enough of being treated like shit. Enough of your lifestyle. Enough of your attitude.

It's really pissing me off.

If you don't care about this relationship at all, tell me now. Tell me and then fuck off. I don't want to see you ever again. Don't bother seeing me, texting me, or calling me.

I have enough of my own shit to deal with. I don't want to deal with yours too. Seriously, make up your mind.

You're already gonna be 21 this year. Time for you to step up and take responsibility. You know, last time you promised you'd always spend Fri, Sat and Sun with me. But so far, you've failed.

There was this one Sat you said promised you'd go for your friend's POP. So i said fine, and we didn't meet. You said that'd be the last time. And then...another Sat, it was your friend's b'day party at a chalet. Again, you promised it'd be the last time. So fine, i was okay with it. And then last Sat...again, you had to go for a friend's farewell party . You promised last Sat would be the last. Somehow, i don't believe that. Somewhere over the next few weeks, or months, more Sats will come where you'll def come up with excuses and say we can't meet.

I've come to a stage where i can't expect much out of you. It's like you'd rather spend time with your friends than with me. I get it, i'm boring. That fricking hurts though. I know i'm not important to you at all. Bros before hoes huh?

You spend more time with your friends on their birthdays then with me on mine. Like last year, my 18th b'day. Yeah we went to the zoo and all but you fricking left at 6pm cause you claimed you had a headache. Then you said you were sick and all that crap. It was supposed to be my birthday and you managed to turn it around and make it about yourself. And you know what i did that night? I just spent my birthday alone in my room, watching shows on my laptop and moping. Other people would be out celebrating but no, not me. My birthday was ruined...

And somehow, i don't expect much out of you for my birthday this year. I don't expect anything from anyone. I'm probably just gonna spend it alone like i normally do.

You're already entering NS in exactly 2 weeks time. We were supposed to be spending as much time together as we could. Is that happening?  I'm sure you can answer that question yourself. Me, coming over, watching you sleep...that is not what i call spending time together AT ALL. Me watching you play dota is not spending time together either. Spending time together is when you do things together. It's like you don't enjoy spending time with me.

We've even run out of things to say to each other. Like at our V'day dinner. You kept fidgeting, checking your phone, going out to smoke, calling your friends on the hp. Then when your friend came to the restaurant, you went to his table to talk to him and just left me alone. I thought i was supposed to be your date, No?

So seriously, what do you even need me for? You afraid of being alone? Cause it seems to me you won't ever be alone. You have all your dear dear friends whom you seem to love more than you love me.

So yeah, wtv, you can choose to take this seriously or treat it as a joke. The choice is entirely up to you. Whatever it is, i hope it's the right choice for you, me and this thing we call a relationship.

Make a decision before it's too late and i decide for you.

Did this on twitter just now, LOL . Have fun readingggg ^^