Sigh. Being single S U C K S.

Especially when you look around and there are happy couples everywhere. When many of your friends are attached. And many Facebook acquaintances around your age are getting engaged and married.

It's not that I miss him. Maybe I do miss the relationship just a teensy bit.

But mostly, I miss having someone to talk to round the clock. Having someone look out for me all the time.

I miss having someone I can share what happened during my day with.

Someone I can just call at any time of the day. 'Cause sometimes I find it odd and suspicious when my friends call me to talk on the phone.

Someone to hang out with all the time without having to make plans with them a few days in advance, especially during the weekend.

I just basically miss belonging to someone. And having someone belong to me.


I hope this feeling will fade quickly and that I learn to love myself.

Sigh, I hate it when people ask me what I plan to do in the future and what kind of career I want. If you know me, you'd know how fickle minded I am. For instance, look at my poly life. I changed course from Pharmaceutical Science to Business.

When I was younger, I wanted to be a librarian or a veterinarian. And then I found out librarians don't earn much and I'm obviously not smart enough or hardworking to be a veterinarian.

Going into Business really confused me even more. I took Marketing and Tourism as electives and they made me want to work in a hotel, do something marketing related or be an air stewardess. After interning at NEA for my SIP, I started thinking of joining WWF.

I applied for Uni last month (I start school at the end of this month) and. . . I'll be doing Communications. So. . . see how fickle I am?

So please, stop asking me what I'm going to do after I get my degree. Stop asking if I plan to further my studies and get Masters or get a full-time job. Stop asking what kind of job I want in the future. Because I really haven't the faintest idea of what I really want.

I can barely decide what I even want to eat for each meal.

Why must everything be so stressful? Being an adult is no fun at all. 

Timbre with Kiwi because I was having an intense craving for duck pizza and frozen margarita.

THIS. IS. SO. OVERRATED.

Trapped on the counter because there was a lizard in the outlet. I fricking HATE lizards. Anna found it behind the boxes of 12s on the shelf and she shrieked. Asked Seven to come help us take it away. And. . . THE TAIL BROKE  OFF. AND IT WAS STILL WRIGGLING. And the lizard ran under a shelf and til today, we still don't know where it is. Then, Kiwi swept the still wriggling lizard's tail towards me and in my panic, I dropped my phone RIGHT NEXT TO THE TAIL. Iiiidiiooottttt.

The fear was real. The urge to cry was strong too. There's a video but. . . I'm kinda lazy to export and upload videos. Maybe next time. 

The day I daringly ventured to town in a tank top, shorts, slippers and no eyeliner. HAHAHAHA. I feel like either I'm slowly giving up on life or I just don't give a damn about my appearance and what people think anymore. 

Went to visit this girl for a while because she was working at Ralph Lauren.

July was such a busy month for me because I was going through some shit and I just wanted to keep myself super busy and not mope around.

So many pictures for July that I'll split them up into 2 posts. Here's Part 1!

1) Universal Studios Singapore
Kiwi and I decided to have a BFF bonding session day (after my breakup and I think he was single at that time as well) and so we decided to challenge ourselves and went to USS.
Someone was late. I'm usually the late one but surprisingly I reached first.

We picked the wrong freaking day to visit USS. It was SAF Day and they were selling tickets 1-for-1 for all those who were and are in the army. The queue was INSANE. I think we spent around close to an hour queueing. We also realised that the queues would be insane for all the rides so we bought the Unlimited Express pass because the ticketing lady said not many of them bought it.

In total, we spent around $130 for each ticket. The most I've ever spent on/in USS, even with meals. Hole in pocket. But it was necessary I guess.

There were a few new rides such as the Puss in Boots ride and Battlestar Galactica reopened. WOOHOO.

We ate lunch at Mel's Drive In because I've never tried it before plus. . . I wanted the lunch box that comes with the kids meal.












After our long and tiring adventure at USS (we were both super cranky from being hot, sticky and wet), that we went to Vivo to freshen up and I bought a whole new set of clothes plus slippers from Cotton On, before going for dinner.


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2) Clubbing

Lately, I've been in such a clubbing mood. I don't even know why I want to club. All I actually want to do is drink. I don't even want to dance. Every week I've been bugging people to club with me. LOL. This is what happens when you've been trapped for so long and you suddenly have a lot of free time on your hands and don't have anyone to answer to.

I went clubbing at Taboo twice. The 1st time I went, I got sooooo drunk. It was a nightmare. Mostly because there was a liquid buffet so of course, I drank and I drank. Plus I was drowning my sorrows that night. It was a nightmare getting home. I can't even remember half the night. Long story short, I ended up at my sister's house.


The 2nd time I went, I really limited myself so I was just short of being high. Thank goodness.



I also managed to get Viv to go with me to Zouk. We started off at F Club first, then Macdonalds and finally ended at Zouk. I was too sober by the time I reached Zouk that I couldn't deal with the people there. No idea if it was just me, or just that night, but the crowd there is weird af. Ended the night by going to Upper Thompson for bachor mee because we all just couldn't take it at Zouk anymore.


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3) Iris's 21st Birthday

It's been ages since I've seen my OBC so I was really glad to be able to see them at Iris's 21st. It was Alice in Wonderland themed. I really loved her backdrop and table setup. Mega chio! Birthday girl was mega chio as well.

(Most photos taken with Iris's cam and I edited them with vscocam)

Can explain??

Behind the scenes.

Hope you enjoyed yourself and had a Happy 21st, Iris Tannie, the VP of the OBC. Hope you love the Pandora charms we picked for you! Really miss poly days with you and the rest of the clique.


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4) Ice-Skating + Bowling

One of our random BFF outings. Went shopping at H&M first because I thought the ice skating rink would be cold and . . . I ended up not buying a jacket. LOL. Then went to bowl because they were resurfacing the ice at the ice skating rink. My bowling skills seriously aren't that bad, in my honest opinion. LOL. Say only.

Forever trying to take "Insta-worthy pictures". So bloody irritating. LOL.

Funny story:
Throughout our 2 hours at the rink, I fell down quite a few times on my ass, with no visible or serious injury. Then as I was helping Kiwi take pictures, he suddenly started skating towards me, banged into me and he fell face-forward onto the ice and injured his elbow and knee. I really cannot even . . . oh and when he banged into me, he caused me to fall AGAIN but lucky I was unscathed. He damn loser I swear. So much blood everywhere.

Seriously, last fucking warning.

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5) Twelve Cupcake's 4th Anniversary

It was my first time attending the anniversary event ever since I've joined the company. I was supposed to go for the 3rd anniversary but I had just joined so I thought it'd be pretty awkward HAHAHAHA. 

This year's anniversary was held at the Kbox at Cineileisure. I was pretty lonely because none of the counter staff from USQ went because everyone was busy with either school, exams or life. Sigh. So I ended up sitting with the Nex people. 

There was a lucky draw and I won. . . $20 FaceShop vouchers. Wow. . . 

I'm not sure but I think this will probably be my last anniversary with the company.  I've been wanting to quit for quite some time already, what with school starting. I really need to focus on my studies. 

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6) Hui San's 21st Birthday

Just barely a week after Iris's 21st, the OBC met up again for HS's 21st. I didn't realise it was meant to be a surprise and earlier on that day I uploaded a pic on Instagram and said "can't wait to see yall later." OOOOPS. 

Not a bad game to play, especially with people whom you thought you knew their dirty secrets. 

Hope you enjoyed yourself and had a Happy 21st, San, despite it being a small celebration! All the best in your studies at UOB and hopefully I'll see you around school soon when I start!



SIANZ I've been really lazy to update my blog nowadays. Plus I have Dayre, Twitter and Tumblr so sometimes I'm not sure what to update on each platform. I'll slowly figure it out.

Keep your eyes peeled for Jam-Packed July Pt. 2!

CIAO!