I trusted you. I let you into my life and heart. I opened up to you.

And you annihilated it all, past the point of saving. 

My walls are back up. 

Hi, sorry for the long hiatus. Lol I realise every time I post something, the way I type is such as though I have a huge audience but the thing is, I doubt anyone even bothers reading my small, humble blog.

Anyway, so much has happened since my last post.

1) ALESSANDRIA SAGE

My sister gave birth on the 22nd of April to a beautiful baby girl. She's really super cute and growing up pretty quickly.

2) FATHER'S DAY

This year, we celebrated Father's Day at an Italian restaurant, Capricci, at Tanjong Pagar. The food tasted really good but the waiting time is a bit too long /: In my opinion lah, because I was pretty hungry that day. 

3) TP GRADUATION

After 5 long and arduous years, I've finally managed to graduate from Temasek Polytechnic with a diploma. Thank God. It really sucked seeing all my friends graduate before me. But I'm really thankful I managed to pull through in the end to obtain my diploma. Imagine if I flunked my last module. I'd have been kicked out of school and my 5 years would have been in vain. So phew!

Funny story, I wore my shoes, which I only use on special occasions, like Christmas, for my graduation. When I reached school, the front bottom part of the shoe opened up. FML TTM. And then, the other side opened too. I think it was due to the fact that I rarely wear them plus they're kinda old so the glue wasn't very sticky anymore. Had to quickly find for tape to fix it. Luckily the uncle at the robe rental booth helped me. Angel in disguise. 

After the graduation ceremony, my parents brought me for dinner at Hotel Jen Tanglin. The food there is really yummy! And I think they were having a promotion for the buffet dinner. 

The ones who saw me throughout my 5 years and never gave up on me <3

my faise when i realize idk wtf to do with my life after this

4) SNIP SNIP SNIP

Decided to cut my hair again. My hair gets really damaged because of my constant dyeing. But I really like how this hair length looks on me.

I actually have a lot more pictures and posts lined up so I'll continue it another time or this post will be too long. 

ANNEYEONGGGGGG! 

<3

HAHAHAHA I know this is fricking childish but I really feel like my life is complete right now. I managed to meet and take a picture with all 5 current members of Hi-5!

I had to google them at first because I wasn't sure of their names. I only know the original cast, Tim, Nathan, Kelly, Kathleen and Charlie.

I admit, I'd have been much more excited if it were the original cast but who cares, I still managed to meet Hi-5! And they're really nice people.

5 in the air, let's do it together ~

So the other day, something major happened to me. *drama*

I dropped my iPhone into the toilet bowl. Of course I rescued it without hesitating because come on, I paid for it with my own money and it wasn't cheap at all.

It worked fairly fine over the next 2 days when. . . fuzzy lines started appearing right at the bottom of my LED screen. It started getting harder to type and the lines started increasing. When I tried to reply whatsapps, I had to type one word, lock and unlock my phone, type the next word and repeat. Sianzzzz.

Finally I couldn't take it any longer and decided to send my phone for repair. Thank God for AppleCare. I went to the Wheelock outlet and they told me it was probably a hardware problem (I didn't dare tell them I dropped it into the toilet bowl cause I wasn't sure if the warranty covers water contact). Then came the bad news. They had to reset my entire phone. Which meant saying goodbye to everything on my phone. I wasn't too upset by it though because prior to sending my phone for repair, I made sure I backed up every important thing to my laptop and iCloud. Then came the biggest shock. It would take 3-5 working days to repair the phone and. . . they don't lend temporary phones. Which meant. . . I would be phone-less for 3-5 days. I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. LOL I feel so pathetic as I type this out.

So for the first day, I relied on FB messenger and iMessage. The next day, I decided to buy a SIM card and used my brother's reservice phone. It's the old school kind that has Snake. Then I found my very first phone, Nokia E63 and just used that instead. I could only call and message people. I was totally cut out from Instagram. I couldn't even take any pictures.

I remember asking Kiwi, "Is Instagram still around? Do people still post pictures?" I even tried getting him to let me log on via his phone but he said no -.- because he couldn't remember his password.

I swear my hands felt so empty without my phone. I even asked Mark if I could just hold his phone for awhile cause it's the same model as mine. I swear, that few seconds felt like heaven.

Then finally on the 3rd day, I received a call from my mother that Apple called my house and that my phone was ready for collection. Best news ever. In the end, they couldn't repair my phone so they just did a 1-for-1 exchange and gave me what I think is a refurbished phone.

I swear technology is extremely evil and addictive. I'm so disappointed with myself at how reliant I am on technology and how hard I find it is to survive without using technology and social media. I mean when I was 6, what did I know about technology. But now, I just totally can't live without it at all.

I seriously need to wake up and get my face out of my phone and focus on more meaningful things.

I haven't spoken to anyone about this but as of late, I've been feeling down. So many things are happening and maybe it's just too much for me to handle. 

I know I keep bringing up this quote, "You can't make people love you, but you can make them fear you," and I make it seem like I totally don't have a care in the world whether people like me or not but sometimes, like maybe 10% of the time, I actually am bothered about whether people like me or not. 

From the time I was young until now, I've always wanted to be accepted into groups and well-liked amongst my peers. Whenever I found out people were talking about me behind my back, I'd be so down and start reflecting on my life. 

It sucks not to be liked. 

I know more and more people are starting not to like me and rumours are spreading and it's starting to get to me even though I'm acting like I don't care at all, but I do.

I do hope one day I can honestly tell myself "I don't give a fuck at all."

So last week, Kiwi bought these special Jelly Beans from Candylicious. There are 20 different flavours in the box. 10 are normal flavours, 10 are disgusting, weird flavours. 

Watch the video to find out more. Don't forget to "Like" the video and subscribe to each of our channels. 

After months of planning and post-poning we finally held our Nex Incentives BBQ LOL.

(All pics taken with Kiwi's camera and edited by him. I just slapped on a vscocam filter.)

It was such a hot day. We nearly died. Especially when we stopped at Marine Terrace and walked a million miles to our BBQ pit. Regret not renting a bike at first.

Then later on, we had to buy more ice and stuff so we rented a bike and cycled to M.T. to buy the necessary stuff. It was a fricking adventure and I saw my life flash right before my very eyes a few times *drama*

Thank God for Jasline. She was the only one here who knew how to start a fire.

And btw, this cake from Cedele is so yummy. Thanks Soo Ching for getting it!

I really miss this #teamnex.

There's actually more girls but they couldn't make it. I really miss the old days at Nex. It was so peaceful, everyone was close with each other. Ever since I transferred to USQ, so much has changed. I was so reluctant to leave Nex at first but now, if you ask me to go back, I wouldn't want to go back.

Sigh. 

Hi, another favourites post right here! It's actually an October + November + December + January Favourites, hehehe, so this is waaaaay overdue. Decided to try my best to upload it before March ends, LOL.

I've been so busy and lazy over the past few months so I haven't really been posting much here. I've used a few products that I really like though. I've decided to split them up into 3 categories.


Beauty

Lush Mask of Magnaminty



I first saw this mask on a YouTuber's instagram and I felt super intrigued by it. There were so many positive reviews about it as well so I went to purchase it. I bought the smaller pot at only $20+? It's pretty pricey. But so worth the price.

Firstly, you apply and spread it all over your face. Then you wait for 15+mins for it to harden, and then you scrub it off with warm water. I always feel so refreshed and clean after that, like my pores have really been cleansed of dirt. My skin feels super cool as well after that, mostly because of the peppermint. I've been using it for a month now and it's been very good so far. No miracles though. Still have my pimples and blackheads but my skin really does feel cleaner after each time I use it.

I definitely recommend you try this product out.



Sephora Lip Stain



I received this from my sister for Christmas. I really love the color (as you can guess by now, I'm a pink lip gloss kind of person). The staying power of this lip stain is incredible as well. . . maybe that's why it's a lip stain, lol.

It is kinda drying after awhile though so be sure to apply lip balm before applying the tint!



Smash Box Lip Gloss



I received this whole set from my parents for Christmas as well. I'm surprised they picked this for me actually. I don't know if they even know that Smash Box is such a good brand.

I've tried out all the colours already and I must say I love all of them. They're perfect for every occasion!

 Here's a swatch of all the colours and the last one is a swatch of the Sephora Lip Stain.



Bath and Body Works Fragrance Mist

I'm more of a fruity floral kind of person so I love these 3 mists the best. So far, I've been using a lot of the Sweet Pea. Recently switched to Beautiful Day. I find that body mists are good for a short day or when you don't feel like using much perfume but you still wanna smell good.





Fashion

Converse High Cut

I've been wanting to buy a new pair of Converse shoes for quite some time already. I've always bought the low cut ones and my current purple one has a hole in the heel. When it rains, oh my, it's like I'm not wearing any shoes at all.

So the other day I finally decided it was time to get a replacement. Decided to #yolo and went for the high cut ones. I was deciding between white and cream and ended up getting the white one because it looks so clean and chio and Matt says sooner or later, it's going to start looking like cream anyway. LOL.

I paid only $40+ for it because it was on discount plus I had some Capitaland vouchers. #score



Rubi Shades




Bought this from the Cotton On's online store last year or so? It was on sale at only $5. I really love the frame and it really fits my face very well.

Good $5 spent, HAHAHAHA.





Others

Bath and Body Works 3-Wick Candles

I've recently been pretty obsessed with burning candles. I've tried a few Yankee Candles but I find they weren't very strong. So my sister recommended that I try out BNBW's 3-wick candles.

Since it was 2 for $50, I bought the Watermelon Lemonade and Mahogany Teakwood.

My family hates the Watermelon Lemonade because they think it's extremely strong, but that's what I love about it plus I love how refreshing it smells.

The Mahogany Teakwood smells exactly like how the A&F shop smells like. It gives me a headache after awhile though, but it's still not too bad.

I will definitely keep purchasing more BNBW 3-wick candles. 

Okay that's all for now!
Will try to update a bit more once I'm done with my exam.
Planning to work more after my exams as well. Need to earn as much money as I can.
Bye!